POWER OF AFFECTION

I know and read philosophies that this life is not eternal,

Persons,things,fame,money,assets,job won't come along with us.Any

relationship won't last for long period in between from birth to death.Life

period is too short.and so many related philosophies.

I can surely say loss of other things won't affect me except persons.For

example,My affection on Swamiji.Now I am not able to be with him.The above

said related philosophies are taught by him.But i am not able to avoid

affection on him.If he got ill or any uncomfortability i am not able to

tolerate.If any body disrespect him i began to cry.I cried so many days when

my father cursed him.He is Such a Kindful,devotional,Divine knowledge

person.When he see me his eyes sparkle with kindness.No words come from

him.He used to see me with kindness.I am able to see his kindness on his

eyes.I drowned in his kindness.oh God, I never seen any person in my Life

with such a kindness.That kindness comes from the heart of maturity,and,

Divine knowledge.I didn't find such a kindness from my Sister,Father and

relations.They also having kindness but not equivalent to the kindness of

him.There are so many events happened that bathed me with the kindness of

him.

Next to him is Shree Pattamuthu - who encouraged me in the devotion of Lord

Shiva.

Now what My Problem is;The above said persons are not with me physically.
I am expecting that I want to be always with such devotional,kindful Persons.
But what is the Truth ?.No body can't always be with no body even in this

short period of Life span.I know this,but practically i can't apply it.Many

days I cried and Prayed related to this to Divine Mother.Even in Bhagavad

Gita Lord Krishna says we should not expect to be with humans [ie] We should

not get affected even when we are alone or along with humans.We should have

that state of Mind, if not it will give great misery.

But I am not able to follow this.Regarding affection on Good Persons like

Swamiji I am like a dog.Even they hate me on any situation,I won't hate them.

I could renounce any thing like affection on

house,land,money,fame,dress,vehicle but I can't follow it in case of Good

Persons like Swamiji.

Even now I had Chocolate Cover given by Pujya Swamiji before 10 Years.

And having Cloth tied on the wound on My thumb before 6 Years.This cloth was

tied by Seetha Ma.

I am saving the things like a treasure given by Good Persons,because of my

affection and love on them.

What will be equivalent to their kindness ?. Nothing will be equivalent to

their kindness.

I understood that - Affection is Really Very Powerful.

DIVINE KNOWLEDGE IS THE ONLY SOLUTION TO ALL SUFFERINGS.